Friday, January 29, 2010

Still of the Wagon

I made it one more day and then again back to it, I may now only have a couple of choices as it seems that I do not have the strength to kick this unassisted.

The choices are, for me, as I don't want to do the Naltrexone implant or Suboxone (Buprenorphine) due to experiences some of my mates have had recently, are Methadone or Slow Release Oral Morphine. As I am currently weighing the pros and cons of which route to attempt first, I will try to record and convey as best I can a comparison of the choices open to me and the reasons I will have to choose whichever of them I end upon.

This is truly one of the hardest things I have ever attempted, I can not believe how I could have possibly thought I was in control of this thing for so long, what a fool.


  1. I, myself, have been an addict. I feel your pain. Drugs are in no context a good thing. It is VERY difficult to kick, there is no doubt about that. Always remember that the sun will always shine after the storm. It will be hard the first while but like anything else in life it will end. The pain is only temporary when detoxing, it will pass, I assure you. It is easier said than done but I have done and there is hope. I dedicate my life to the recovery of people with chemical dependencies and trust me you can and will get through it. Cognitive therapy is important, relearn how to live without it and you will be successful. May God bless you.

  2. Hello. I am curious: What is your decision?

  3. i just found your blog through Gledwood's. I am the wife of a heroin addict (he's got bout 6 months of clean time at this point). My partner couldn't kick by himself, and he was turned away from detox centres and rehabs numerous times. He got clean with suboxone (which he'd messed with for more than a year. Everyone said, 'Sub doesn't work for you,' but in the end, it worked well.) and a little gang of fellas from AA and NA. They literally held his hand and took turns babysitting him 'til the worst was over.
    Anyway, I am wishing you the best. You CAN do it, and please know this: it's not easy to kick, but it is totally worth it.

  4. Melissa: Thank you muchly for your comment, I have been thinking about CBT and may pursue that as I pass through the system.

    Mago: I will be posting that very soon.

    Mem: Thank you very much!

    Appreciate the support peeps!