Anthrax Tainted Heroin?

Just herd that we now have a lethal batch of Heroin floating around the streets, that has been tainted with Anthrax.  What is next?

It does make you wonder though, is this really a part of the terror campaign as the powers that be would like us to think or is it rather an accident at the point of manufacture?

Lets face it most of our smack comes from Afghanistan or neighboring areas, we are told all the time that terror funding comes from the sale of illegal drugs to westerners, is it such a giant leap to think that this is just an accident, that the same lab was used to make Anthrax as was used to make Heroin without proper procedures, these are after-all back yard drugs people.  I find it hard to believe that any dealer, supplier or manufacturer wants their clientel to die.

But there we have it, they are, 8 so far.  Counting...

Australia Day

Terra Australis, Terra Australis Ignota, Terra Australis Incognita, Magallanica or Magellanica, La Australia del Espíritu Santo, and La grande isle de Java, or Australia to the masses.

404 years since conception (first sighting of Terra Australis), 222 years since birth (first settlement of Terra Australis), 186 years since British Admiralty accepted the name Australia into the vernacular (thank you Matthew Flinders), 109 years since we moved out from home (signing of the constitution for Terra Australis), you would think at this age we could have a drink!

On 26 January 1808, Manning Clark notes that the '20th anniversary of the foundation of the colony' was observed in the traditional manner with 'drinking and merriment'. So why can't I have a bevvy on the foreshore???

At any rate I digress, we had an excellent day, what more could I want. Kids, family, merriment, good food, great company....

Really wanted to have a hit today, after dropping the kids back to their Mother, seems like the horrible Physical Withdrawal has for the most part vanished but her insidious brother Psychological Withdrawal is here to stay.

To make it just that little bit harder my knees are really hurting from the other night out, one quick shot and I wont feel a thing. The other side of this knee thing is I can't work, so I have been bored and depressed, not so much today, but will be again tomorrow. My gag reflex is kicking in just thinking about it, after prolonged Heroin use some people get what is Medically Diagnosed as a 'Hypersensitive Gag Reflex', this can be triggered by almost anything ranging from things that normally make someone feel a bit ill to the most mundane act or stimuli to, most usually for me, thinking about Heroin.

Got to stay strong...

Better to have a bottle in front of me,

than a frontal lobotomy...

On day nine now, I think, I have stayed very drunk the last few days which has helped a fair bit but has the consequence of blurring time a little.  Must be day nine ;)

Got to sober up now, got the kids tomorrow, time to man up and actually face this thing cold turkey.

Feeling confident, the problem with 'hope at the end of the tunnel' is that I always see the flip side of it, an epic fail!

Oh What A Night

I am doing well, had a massive Friday night on socially acceptable medications (alcohol).  Feeling utterly dreadful today, last night was a bit of a release of some pent up steam, drank way too much, stuffed my knees up some how and wont be able to work for a few days, which is bad as we have Australia Day coming up and I do work that would have yielded a very large pay packet for the day.  To top it all off I made an absolute prise prick of myself at the place I work, not a good idea to 'shit in your own back yard' as they say.

Not missing the smack so much today, feeling as crap as I am at the moment I can hardly smoke cigarettes, let alone anything harder...

Going to have an early night and see what tomorrow brings...

Day Two - revisited! Arse to it.

Here's a shock, coming down again, I suppose they had to do it, but shux.  Bit peeved I feel like I did on day two, not looking forward to tomorrow I can tell you all that.  At any rate this is just a quick one, got to go back in time and fill in some history.

Day Three - Oh My God... (continued...)

So I ended up going to Hospital, seems that lung infections like Pneumonia and Bronchitis are quite common when withdrawing from Smack.  Apparently they are also common during the use of it, who knew...  At any rate I dragged my arse into the hospital this morning because of all the pain I was having in my left lung, turned out to be mild Pneumonia, a bacteria that like to reproduce rapidly in your lungs when your immuno-suppressant system is not working correctly.  Problem is that Heroin gives the Immune System a somewhat misrepresented bolstering, for instance you can be in the middle of one of the worst flu's you have ever had, and just a little smack will knock it on the head.  In actual fact Heroin was used from the early 1800's til about the 1920's for the treatment of coughs and other flu like diagnosis.

Pneumonia is caused by the inhalation of infected microorganisms (tiny, single-celled living organisms, such as bacteria, viruses, fungi or protozoa) spread through contact with an infected person.  The microorganisms enter the body through the mouth, nose and eyes.  If the body's resistance is down (thank you Heroin), the natural process of fighting off diseases is weakened and the microorganisms are free to spread into the lungs and the lungs' air sacs.  The air sacs become filled with fluid and pus from the infectious agent, making it more difficult for the body to get the oxygen it needs.

There are three main types of pneumonia, Mycoplasmal, Bacterial and Viral. 

Fortunately, it may seem, for me I have the Bacterial variety, the Viral variety is not so readily treatable with Antibiotics.  Pneumonia-causing bacteria is present in many throats, but when the body's defenses are weakened (for example, by illness, old age, malnutrition, impaired immunity or excessive drug use) the bacteria can multiply, working its way into the lungs, inflaming the air sacs and filling the lungs with liquid and pus. The bacteria that cause bacterial pneumonia are streptococcus pneumonia (resulting in lobar pneumonia), hemophilus influenza (resulting in bronchopneumonia), legionella pneumophilia (resulting in Legionnaires' disease) and staphylococcus aureus.

The Viral variety is caused by viruses (funny that), such as influenza (flu), adenovirus, coxsackievirus, chickenpox, measles, cytomegalovirus and respiratory syncytial virus. These viruses also invade the lungs and multiply.

With bacterial pneumonia, you experience:

    * shaking

    * chills

    * chattering teeth

    * severe chest pain

    * cough that produces rust-colored or greenish mucus

    * very high fever

    * sweating

    * rapid breathing

    * rapid pulse rate

With viral pneumonia, the you experience:

    * fever

    * dry cough

    * headache

    * muscle pain and weakness

So given the above, the diagnosis was made rather hard for the Doctor's considering all of those symptoms accept severe chest pain can be put down to the Physical Withdrawal process of Heroin.

The remedy is a course of Antibiotics and bed rest, the real shitty thing of it is that they had to give me some pretty cool painkillers, I did not find out what they were but I am hoping against hope they were not Opioid based or I will be set back 2 days in this process.  Grrrrhhhh!!!!  There are litterally hundreds of story's when you google Heroin Relapse that reference an accident or some incident in the persons life, that required a Medical Practioner to give pain releif, causing relapse...  Not me...

Day Three - Oh My God...

Last night was very hard indeed, most of the usual suspects reared their ugly heads for me.  Can't wait to see what the rest of the day holds for me...
Piloerection (goose bumps), Runny Nose, Yawning - but combined with Insomnia (damn it all), Nausea, Vomiting, The Shakes, Cramps, Panic, Restless Leg Syndrome, Jitters, Chills and Sweats etc...  I am so very irritable today, I feel like my lungs are going to cave in, like a real bad flu after coughing for for days.

I can feel my teeth again, this sucks, one of the major problems of Heroin use is that for some reason it seems to rot the teeth. Heroin dries out the saliva that is present to naturally combat oral bacteria, as do Meth and Cocaine and most likely a few other substances as well. In addition they deplete your body of nutrients that are vital to the growth of skin, hair, and nails as well as teeth and tooth enamel.  Some people would suggest that when stoned all the time, people just don't care about much, other than the drug. Statements like "hygiene, sleep and food become things of the past", this for the most part in my experience is not the case - I take good care of my teeth and hygiene.

Fuck this is hard, so much pain in my lungs today, particularly the left one.  Not sure why, I have not felt like this the last couple of times.  Maybe it is a result of my addiction being so much greater than it had been prior to the last attempts.  Might see a Doctor, God I hate Doctors, impartial mutherfuckers - sure, sitting there judging and and laughing inside. Should be called the 'hypocritical oath', given the figures on health care professionals and their substance abuse statistics.

So hard...  I brought it on my self, now I must fix it my self...